Angry Much?

I just sent out 3 angry tweets in a row over a stupid jewelry box in this store.  I don't even know why i'm so angry about it.. maybe i'm just irritated as is haha.

Im getting frustrated with trip planning because of the money issue.  im completely broke...
i need to pay for my bills still, and i have like $12 in my wallet right now.. ONLY.. wtf? whered all my money go? arrgg...

Hella Annoying

I hate being at home sometimes..

yanno.. i dont mind being home alone.. cuz then i can get some peace and quiet.. but when i have shit to do and people are at home, thats when they tend to do the most noise.

how hard is it to pick up a damn dinner plate?  or pick up a fork without making all that stupid ass clanging noise? ITS NOT THAT HARD.. JUST PICK IT UP AND GO. shit.. its driving me crazy and it pisses me off so much.

That's why i hate lazy Sundays.. cuz thats when everyones lazy to do shit ahaha

In That Mood...

This may be a really long rant.. so if you're not interested, dont read.

I have so many doubts and regrets lately, it's not even funny.  I have so many things running through my mind that it's hard to sleep at night sometimes.  There's just so much I want to talk about, but i don't know where to start.. but if i don't let SOMETHING out, i might go crazy..

Finals ended today and i'm praying sooooo hard that I passed just so i can continue on in my studies.  Im tired of retaking classes.. i'm tired of having to be such a lazy person that it's my own fault for not passing in the first place.  I try SOO hard in order to study, but my priorities get thrown somewhere else.  My mind races like crazy and it pains me to see myself trying to give self-pity when I know it's my own fault.

Lately my mind focuses on one thing, or I should say one person.  I love using twitter because it's something where you can get updates instantly from people.. but at the same down, the downfall is sending in a reply which later you regret saying.  I went from "think before you type" or "type it, think if it's ok to send, then erase it" to sending in an instant reply and later i feel like an idiot for doing it.  I don't want to call myself a fangirl.. im done with that.. but because I cant call myself that, then what am I?  I think i'm CRAZY!. like seriously.. my mind goes 24/7 to this person.. and then every tweet, i just want to reply and when I end up doing so.. i feel like an idiot.  By the time I want to erase it, a reply gets sent back and I get even more depressed because it's always a reply that I never want it to be.  And just admitting that makes me feel bad about myself.  Self-pity #2..

Lastly.. i feel like everyone's getting to do their own thing.  Everyones graduating this semester, or at least it feels that way, and here I am stuck at school.  I always want to hang out (which I know I shouldnt), but everyone always seems like they already got plans with other people.  I know I shouldn't be like "oh why don't they want to hang with me?" or feel left out or anything, but you know.. you just cant help that.
I guess the whole feeling is that I'm lonely lately.  I don't really have anyone to talk to.. and everyone knows that I cant talk about this kind of stuff with my family.  I'm the quiet one, who usually always seems happy...

I guess I need some alone time to think over some stuff.  Trying to keep get my spirit back =/