Frustrated...

I'm frustrated with everything.  And now it's starting to affect my appetite.  In the last 3 days I've barely eaten.  I'm hungry, yet I have no appetite.  This is starting to sound familiar, which I won't get into right now (maybe sometime in the future), but it's for a different reason.  I want to eat, I really do, but all this stress is just making me lose my appetite.  This is such an opposite effect from last semester where I ate a lot before tests, but this semester its the total opposite and I think it's also because of the lack of sleep.  All this stress is also giving me rashes which I've never had before.  I'm getting them on my stomach and my arms.  I really need some sort of support structure right now.  I don't get a chance to talk to my closest friends often anymore, I barely see family and I'm always holed up now trying to study or get work done.  I dunno.. I just hope to get through this semester....

Revelation. Kind of......

It's that time of the semester where those who are filing for graduation need to start applying.  Ive been trying to get my advisers signature for the last couple days, but always come at the wrong times. Even today, I came earlier than usual and he wasn't in his office.  Luckily I headed back right after and caught him as he was heading there.

Sitting with him as he looked over my papers, he kept asking me a few questions about.. I guess LIFE.  He asked what I want to do once I graduate, how are classes going, was it difficult to get into my classes, how'd I like going to this school.. but one in particular made me laugh, which also made him laugh a bit which was

"You were an INTERIOR DESIGN MAJOR?"
Yes...I WAS.  For the first 3 years of being at that school I was an Interior Design major.  But not once in that 3 year span did I ever take an art class.  Not one.  Not even as an elective for GE.  How did I get from an Interior design major to a Microbiology major?  I told him my story:

*I applied to the school as a CELL AND MOLECULAR student, but I entered the school as an Interior Design major as I had changed it prior to entering the school.  I chose an art major because Art was something that I've been thinking of doing for a long time (back in high school I was ready to apply to an art school, only to realize in my senior year that I wanted to go to a "4yr school").  I ended up changing it to Microbiology because I knew it was science that I loved and wanted to do.

He told me he was amazed, mentioning that not most college students actually take the time to explore and think about what they're doing or take the time to actually find that thing that they're meant to do.

Him telling me this made me realize that science really is who I am.  I know I always joke around about science stuff, or explain scientific things to people when they ask, but it's been awhile since I had to think about why I decided to change my major from an art to science major.  And for him to, I guess, praise my decision made me realize that I did choose the right path. 

All the hardships I've gone through...
Watching myself re-taking courses I SHOULD have passed the first time...
So many years of being at this school...
Watching my friends graduate before my eyes...

I've felt myself wanting to give up, maybe even switching my major, but in the end, I'm happy and proud of the accomplishments I've made so far.  I know in the end it's all going to be worth it.

WHY?!

I've been so busy with school, so I've neglected to post on here.  Work is hella slow right now, which is why I'm updating and i'm about to fall asleep so I need something to entertain me for 45 minutes hahah.

Ive been caught up with a group presentation for parasitology.  I hate my group.  I don't know how much more I can emphasize that, but that's it..i HATE my group.  And heres why:
- Bunch of know-it-alls
- Stuck me with the hardest part of the project
- Made me FINISH it after they finished their parts
- Combined everything together and even had to design it
- Meet at times that are so unconvenient.

Anyways. that's all i gotta say about that.  We'll see what happens with grading.  Sorry I suck at public speaking, but I did my shit.. all that's left is the group paper which doesnt make any fuckin sense to do cuz how the fuck you gonna do a group paper right? whatever.. that's all. bye

It'll Get Crazier..

From NOW until.... whenever.. it'll just keep getting crazier.

I just finished summer today, but I'm going to be leaving on a trip on Monday to the East Coast.  What sucks is, I haven't had time to plan anything for the trip because I've been busy with school.  I haven't even started my packing list yet.  Even though I have the "Pack This" sheet, I still have to know what I want to bring specifically, not just the quanitities.  Also theres so much planning on where we want to go since we don't know where ANYTHING is we have to jot down addresses and see whats the closest ones around first and go from there.

As much as I want to plan this trip, it's going to be such a busy weekend.  Getting my haircut tomorrow, then seeing American Idol live on Saturday, then a party on Sunday.  We leave Monday morning at 4:30am (or need to get to the airport at that time), so there won't be much extra time to pack.. 
gotta start my list today.. lets just hope I don't get distracted like I always do!

Disappointed

It's 2nd priority registration time for classes and I'm super disappointed.

1st priority I did an excellent job of picking out a schedule to fit for my major:
- Microbiology + lab
- Parasitology

What sucks is that I can't take the parasitology lab because it doesn't fit into my schedule (overlaps with microbio lecture).  That means I have to wait until Fall 2011 to take the class (-_-).

With the 2nd registration, I ended up signing up for 2 crap classes:
- Sex and Relationships
- Race, Gender and Science Fiction

I know.. WTF?!  I'm okay with the ethnic studies class because it's an online course, but the human sexuality class is MWF from 8-9, not to mention that I have only that one class on mondays. I was only taking this class cuz a friend of mine asked me to.. turns out she didn't sign up for it (but it's ok, cuz I did that to her last semester lol), but I need units so that's what I have so far.  Now, I can sign up for other classes, in about 2 hours during the open registration, for something else instead of that human sexuality class, but do i really want to juggle my schedule around right now since the only classes available to fit my schedule are waiting list only?  That's going to be a gamble to drop a class I'm already in for a class to see if I can get added.

My registration classes isnt the only thing that's bothering me.  The fact that this summer course I'm taking right now was just a waste of my summer.  I feel lke I'm about to fail (and trust me, i'm not exaggerating) and I just basically wasted 3 units to drop my GPA lower than it already is.  And I cant retake this course in the Fall because it overlaps with microbio lecture too..

I also took a look at my DARS report.  My calculus grade sticks out like a sore thumb and I can't retake that course on campus anymore.. which means I got to take it during the next summer or take it somewhere else during the semester, which will be harder to do.

I need a break from school shit.  I need that vacation NOW.

Thursday Shenanigans

It's been a week since my last post yeah? Should i make this a regular thing.. once a week posting?

Anyways, turns out I did bomb that test, but we still got an extra 10pt hw assignment, not that would help.. not to mention whether or not I will get the full 10pts.  Because of how bad I did on that last test, I need to do well on the 4th midterm and the final in order to keep up my grade.  Im doing enough to get by in the class, but in order to pass, i need that 4th midterm and final.

That's for one class.. the other classes, well let's just say i'm struggling more in other classes.  Struggling as in, struggling to finish.  I got a 5-page hmsx paper to write, and then a 10-page bioethics paper to start.  Hmsx due next Friday and Bioethics due in 2 weeks.  Not to mention that I got a bioethics midterm next wednesday.  *sigh* definitely getting down the wire and gotta keep up with my work.  It's so hard to concentrate on my papers and to find a way to make a study sheet. 

It's not even about procrastination anymore, because I'm not.  I'm working on it, it's just HOW to deliver this work.  This Hmsx paper should be easy to write because it's a review essay, yet I can't focus on how to write it since i'm more worried about whether or not I have all the requirements (which I must add is ridiculous for what our prof wants from us).  25 citations from 3 articles, but you can't use more than 15% of the text.. it doesn't make sense.. because you cant have 5 citations per page, and consider that 85% your own work because you're quoting everything from the articles. What?!

Whatever, I just want to finish it up so I can start my other paper.

Definitely feeling the stress coming along now.  Just about 3 more weeks left and I'm home free.. for a couple weeks at least, then back on the grind for summer session. ughh.. when will this end?!

Crazy Week...

Last Thursday didn't go as I had hoped.
Before the game, During the game, then After we left... totally in a bad mood.  I nearly killed my newly charged cell by texting people all my rants haha.  Sorry about that folks, but you all know that when i'm frustrated I immediately get on my phone and start texting everyone haha.

Definitely glad to have been with family that night or else I would have been stuck in a bad mood for a LOOOOONG time.  I thought we were going to be there too long and miss ABDC Champs for Charity, but ended up watching it there (then at home, then again the next day haha) and must say, it was A-MA-ZING.  I was first to jump on the couch when it came on and of course the first thing that comes out is "who's the cute one Sanna?!" HAHA.. of course.

We left the house around 11pm and when we walked to the car we saw an SUV with a driver blocking the way... by the time we got to the car, Monta Ellis walked out of his house.. me and my bro got quiet.  It's like... do we say something? do we leave him alone? say hi? what do we do? HAHA.  Just smiled, got in the car and tried to maneuver around the SUV and left.  That was a WOW moment haha.

Anyways, besides that Thurs, nothing special in the past week, just studying and bombing tests.. sucks to be me... roooar!

School Registration

I forgot this week was the start of summer registration.  It didn't help that I never got to see what my summer registration time was in the first place, but whatever.  I was reminded by someone on facebook who posted in their status that they registered for a summer class.. that's when I'm like... OH CRAP!!

So, I registered for Ochem 2 (fun....) and hopefully things go well this summer..

Checked out my registration time for the Fall..
Crappy timing i swear.. give it to me on a day where I'm IN class... hella stupid.. i swear, my school -_-*

anyways... i shouldnt be complaining considering my registration time is pretty high up there.. hopefully i can get the classes I want/need

Easter till Now...

Easter Sunday was such a crazy filled day.
Woke up at 7 and got ready for church, but turned out we weren't going to the 8AM mass, but the 9AM mass.
Mass was about 1.5 hours, which was weird since mass was only an hour at 8.. hmm..

Got home, and ate a pancake (yes A pancake.. ONE pancake), and then off to San Ramon with my brother to visit one side of the Pugay fam.  First time I went to my cousins house and boy was it nice.. though you can't expect less from a house in San Ramon haha. 
When we got there, they were finishing up cooking lunch, but me and my bro couldn't eat since we were heading to another party after.  Though we did get to make our own Italian sodas and OMG were they good, but that's coming from someone who couldnt drink soda for 40 days (I'll explain about my lent experience after haha).
Lunch looked good, but too bad couldnt eat any of it.

We stayed about an hour and then headed off to Fremont to a buffet with another side of the Pugay fam.
Been to this buffet several times, and the only thing I can complain about is the slow service.  Getting refills on drinks (or even getting our drinks) and getting our plates picked up were so slow, but other than that, the food is always good enough to keep getting more.
Got to play with my nephews a bit and my goddaughter and then headed back home ASAP Since I had to meet up with my friends for a Karaoke night.  It was raining pretty hard out so my bro drove slower than usual, but still made it back home on time.

D was already waiting for me outside, but Jane was late, even though she was the one that wanted to meet up earlier hahaha
I drove through the rain to Pacific East Mall.. traffic because of an accident, which was wasting even more of our time.. felt bad cuz Jane needed to be back early, so we were rushing as much as possible.
We sang for about an hour, and even after the first song, i was already losing my voice.. WOMP WOMP.

Went home in the rain again and yep, that was my night and the end of my spring break. 

So what have I been doing up till now? studying for my genetics test which I feel like I've bombed....we'll have to wait and see what happens.

So lent right?
I gave up COFFEE. CANDY. SODA. CHOCOLATE for lent.. 40 days of none of that.  I crashed on the chocolate course.  Sister made me eat that red velvet cupcake (which was totally worth it, but i felt bad) on her birthday, but other than that havent had any at all.  Had my first Soda during the party in San Ramon, had my first Chocolate when I got home from church.. THIN MINTS <3.  Havent had candy or coffee yet, but I'm trying not to get into the habit of always having it.

Anyways, that's all for now.. until next time

Lazy Sundays

I updated the travel blog HERE with days 3,4 and 5.  Still got 2 days left to write and the travel back home, but that'll have to wait till later.

Today's such a lazy Sunday, and you can tell when the whole house is quiet for a day when everyone's home.  That means everyones napping haha.

Spring Break officially started for me Friday afternoon, yet I haven't done anything worthy yet.  Tomorrow heading out FINALLY to hang with Judy in the afternoon, then dinner with Jane.  Missing you D, you suck for being in LA haha jk XD)

So far my spring break consists of me working on a research paper for genetics.  Hella lame, i swear... whatever, its only 3-5 pages, yet the requirements are ridiculous...
Anyways, i should start writing the paper now, just so I dont do most of it last minute..

School and Work

February 13, 2010

It's about 3 weeks into the spring semester.  As a science major, it's pretty much midterm season already.  First ones coming up on Monday and already my concentration to studying just isnt there.  I REALLY do want to study, but I tend to get distracted easily (facebook, twitter, youtube..)... what to do?

Works going fine, though there isn't much of rush.  It's such a change from the mall.  There's never a big rush of people at once and theres a huge gap of time before the next person will come in.
Working at night is kind of trippy though.  I can't see outside, but people outside could see in (and vice versa in the day).  I see the inner reflection of the store, with hints of outside life.. so im actually not sure if anyones actually looking in or not.  It's freaky!

I'm ready to update the travel log, but i dont have my notebook with me.  I'll go ahead and do that tomorrow for Day 2.  I'm trying to find a way to do live video feeds, or at least a method for me to send a video from my phone to the internet without having a size or time limit.
I'll keep an eye out for that one!